I squeeze smiles out of you!

Saturday, July 08, 2006
3:11 am

Mon- the world's biggest choc bar cannot be eaten. Worked the pockets, and the limbs (after a very long time). Love and concern here; and coming soon.

Tue- Bangkok Bunch, here we come! Settlers Cafe (and Daawat Tandoori) are must-gos again. Miss the whole Bad Bunch! Cars all around. Happy scores.

Wed- how many times must I guess right? Mad World Cup. Slept. And talked in comfort. 125 at Newton Circus caused the fever? Drove and talked in peace?

Thu- loveliest day of all- though smudgy and lethargic. Bought; ate; watched; joined; snapped; laughed. Dawn of work again? It can ALWAYS happen to us.

Fri- can't meet everyone then never mind- why fret. Slept in high temps. Woke to the greatest time with the CG EVER. Bolster hugged; calls barred. Care(s).

I believe our lives should never be about waves of rising and dipping- good and bad mood swings; cyclical changes between poverty and prosperity; peaks and abysses of elation and melancholy; the constant switching of predatorial and victimized roles, you get the idea. It has been a vicious circle of vision enslavement that few, over the years, have dared to stay out of.

It should all be one chunk of this concoction: epiphanies after epiphanies of truth and emergence; the pleasures of extravagant luxuries upon the euphoria of simplistic beauties; both gradual and abrupt build-ups of grace and joy; inundation and stampedes of some genuine and sincere FUN. Life's all about FUN and compromising on this entails a squandering of Life itself.

Not to leave out Peace and Integrity in this wild concoction of mine. They move and shake all our bodies in a vigorous, yet subtle manner. Their presence should more than be felt; their existence much to shout about. Maturity demands it. The propagating Appropriate Focus. Snapping out of It at times also.

This week's events, however, cannot be categorized into any one of my known archives...has it to do with me being 21? But familiar habits are still retained, and old lifestyles stick on strong. So is it an irony that my frame of mind has progressed up the next rung? Where're the accompanying actions that seal and confirm? The change can be sensed.

The need is fiercely personal; it's the Cause- the kernel of all motivations. So much so that it's not a motivation anymore.

Redang; Arts Camp; Bangkok. Play; work; study. Friends- Old and New.
THE COMPANION FOR LIFE, AND BEYOND.
Open and unbridled. Cocksure and driven.

Where's my faith now? Lost or hidden. Streaks and hints of it in certain places. Let it soar again, with no compromise this time! I will be in Bangkok from 1055am on Sat 080706 to 2130 on Wed 120706. More meetups after that- this week's have been too rushed. PHOTO TIME IS EVERYDAY. Money- my downfall? Pack now!

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