I squeeze smiles out of you!

Monday, June 19, 2006
3:00 am

What I wanted was not this.

Lustcrush.
The spirit will not be fooled- it can still overtake all the dark wants.

And nothing's ever been borrowed...I've always seen the need to internalize unoriginals and check on their relevance before I mouth them out myself..

Nothing doing, seriously- if it's for nothing.
The key that finally showed up might have just opened doors with a seductive lush succulence beyond them.

So I'd hope the core shines to you.
Dreams and achievements substantiate Life.
Purpose and drive's the oxygen.

Is there any wonder why I keep wanting more now? One thing led to another. The then stacked tower sustained blows- funk aborted.

Down with Sunsilk.

Sorry I just cannot help me getting distracted.
The realization of the wondrous mechanism of Life itself is a much stronger anchor against storms; far better than learning lessons at how to tackle them. Sit back and enjoy the ride.
But I do have to learn from lessons in thorough planning.

It was wearing me out; so even turning the dial became cumbersome. But when the realization to be Present and to be Involved just clicked in me; I went into 'turn every idle thought and negative emotion into prayer and praise' mode.

I've got to dress sharper.
The sky's been rather tender on the the aesthetic fibres in me.

My lovely family- the ultimate fantasy getaway for me.

Whenever I wonder if God is any bigger than my weakest and sourest moments in Life, I look back on this night- the night that our spirits touched each other and a waterfall of power and purity came in abundance; clarity and control seemed boundless, and dimensions and doors we never once conceived before, we ventured into. Openness in confession.

But is it warped? That I can't resist anymore? That it's coming too easily? Balance lar.
I like to be auspicious in my datechoosing for none other than practical reasons...

So if it's gonna be tiring keeping myself up and keeping me myself, I'll just go take a break sometimes. Whatever was wrong with being in my PensiveUnlimited mode?

I could use all my obstacles as rungs to upwardly realizing my ultimate truth. It is such a different direction, now that I'm undertaking much more than I used to.

Because I'm not ashamed anymore. Thank God for revelations.
I'm no more that old dependent self, because I see the need to think that CanDo has a nice ring to it.

Shouldn't I stop thinking further than I should? Those insides of principles, and the squeezing of loopholes out from them...

The aura spreads. Michelle and band was wonderful on 2 fronts. So DadDay counts as something worth my remembrance. Feelgood days must have depth!

My idea of balance- warped?
And this greatness will soon see a swooping dip again. It's for sure.
And then I'll cope.

I soon knew why my old ways were so slow.

doodled
XD