I squeeze smiles out of you!

Wednesday, May 31, 2006
1:29 am

I can't be all honest in this real world! Meanwhile, the monster of contention and discord has retrograded..I think he's fleeing.

I've a new plan. The main one. Contingency plans will shoot up as I move along. For one, stifled enjoyment can never be tolerated. Like today! Lack of planning cannot lead to indecisiveness and distractions; it must always point toward spontaneity and efficiency in impulsiveness! 've been rushing alot to complete pre-planned errands these couple of days, and that means the touch is slipping away! The family police has also clamped down, hard and vicious. Bleak future; but a timely end?

It's come full circle on the outside- so, has the fun grown bland and predictable on the inside? Developments and weathering on the individual and corporate levels have made for the staleness. And so a rising inner urge to present the remedy- to return to the youthful wonder of the innocent and the genuine; when nothing else mattered except for being intoxicated in real thrills... And this time, reverting to how it was like before is welcoming that old wave. This current wave ain't doin' us no good, cos the old one was like a world of a difference. Life- it's all about waves. Pursuing that one wave like the one we had before- but even BETTER than it.

On with the new plan. I will take on the role of the idealist zealot, striving pragmatically and energetically toward an all-rounded end product, whereby everyone's well-being will be catered to. This pseudo-perfect(that's the best) scenario will only materialize if I start taking a resolute albeit responsible approach to handling this. With both a purpose and the end perpetually sparkling inside a clear mind, swift decisiveness will be the fuel; and diplomatic and constructive negotiations will be the vehicle upon which the loving and passionate desire for cleaning up my mess rests comfortably. It must be professionally executed with an open and accomodating attitude. This way, no one will leave without at least gaining something of value; and the outcome will be all about the focus on quality; and an avoidance, if not a lessening of the damaging impact.

My ardent dream. "Dreams keep people on the move; not what they've achieved." Maybe I'm just high on life la.

My lunatic move to make a switch to an outrageous streak in image. The hedonism and its controversial beguiling indulgences...ahhh!! My old ways of neglecting that much needed time to rest. Sigh, this idolized addiction.... The mementos: a freezing corsage and a purple chop. Got hei1hei1 and pang4pang4, yay!! New era arriving= new game and new rules! Passion must be cultivated naturally, not like something cranked up. The momentous twin Thursdays- 1/6 and 8/6. PAYDAYYYY!!

I wanna extrapolate this lovin' feelin' to everything else around me. And although I love it that they are concerned, none can see it like we see it; except the rare neutral ones. My ambivalence will be my doom, but this and that- they're all not sicknesses...they're unique and distingushing marks! I must wake up at that time on that Over The Hedge Day. Later...

My randomness is my catharsis. You borrow, I borrow.....

doodled
XD