I squeeze smiles out of you!

Sunday, May 14, 2006
11:07 pm

Cold, churning, throbbing, groggy, weak.
First time in a long time.... Seriously wild and uninhibited!!! Handled all those memorable ones. Not at all ugly if you ask me...how could I even judge?
More training(...) urgently needed. Not gonna be impaired no more. Thresholds stretched. Wants revisited; needs overlooked...morals still intact yes.

Snapping back to reality, I GAVE like mad today.
BUT I felt the fulfilling sense of peace.
More to give away; more will be replenished! Much more to keep to myself- addressing certain poisonous issues takes more than just plain self-control. Fatigue I can't settle for you. Thorny.

Have I sorted out what really makes up my truest essence? Glimpses of it found- kudos to the weekend devotionals and Mr. Big Personality onstage!!
And I might soon be embroiled in a theological battle of gargantuan proportions. Hold me back, someone.

Missing the good ol' Blitz days. Yes, rare as it may be, an explicit reference to someone, something.....at last!! Haa...enjoying the precious, simple and carefree moments of hanging out with 'em.

Close ones motivated me today; they also caused awkwardness. Can't be explicit here though heh. Nothing to hide....but soon to be only.

Jobs don't find me I know; BUT money please chase me. Houses now??!!~ Whata far leap ahead.
Phasic fad la. GK enthralls; and derides! The art of not knowing must kick in.

Gonna get lifted up in higher dimensions of worship and prayer- I'm glad because I'm always absorbing; I'm thankful because I don't actually have to be in control.

This could be forever...tired, but there are others who're worse off! Love pours outta me unconventionally. And that's its trouble. But thwart this thinking of mine please, all the time. All my days.

[Music from Narnia is an acquired taste; BURN BURN BURN(...)!! I have to take up particular shields to further my cause in staying true to my mantra- EVERYTHING IN BALANCE. You can't dig these up, sorry. Clearance A again?!! Heroes are found all the time- in healthy friends. Fear is indeed the need to control! =) to Henry. Force into existence some discipline la..slow.]

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