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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
12:19 am

All things work out for good for me today.

I was taken from out of the bull's eye. And welfare's just around the corner! And harmony reigns. At least for me now. Today there was sunshine in the rain..

Just when some last minute cock-ups in my plans for the week (thanks to an unyielding autocrat) helped me see nothing else but despair and desperation, I realized the secret power of camaraderie-building. It reminded me, as a selfish NSF, not to hold prejudices against our long-sworn adversaries. Their accomodating and understanding side today was enough to remind me to let go of my resentment toward them. But I'm no fool. I believe in diplomatic negotiations with them. But how to, with people who choose to be open and listen to logic and rationale only at their every whim and fancy?? Me and my ideals.

It's hard not to be defiant against people who care but don't know how to care. SO there're times other tactics must be employed- maybe like us being the submissive, meek kittens whom they all adore. Pussies who aren't allowed to speak up and question the system, when all we want is a cooperative that is found in mutual respect. Respect, which is deservingly earned and not indiscriminately asserted, births forth happy and willing soldiers. But of course.. Give and take; effective communication, blahblah. Us having understanding incorporated in our compliance makes the world a better place for them too. So it's hard for us, and for them too. BUT the camaraderie today happened. And it lightened up the entire mood.

Some left the place still unforgiving, while others sought to forget+accept.

Commanders aren't all that bad (WHATTT?! JOHNN???).. They just rear their ugly head only when their OB markers are crossed. But that aside, they don't really mix task-orientedness with personal grudges. In fact, regulars find picking up and moving on after confrontational discordances much less strenuous than us transient soldiers. As much as I hate to admit that. Not that they are saints, cos they've tonnes to learn from us as well. But we can't see our shortcomings. And I see mine via what happened today.

And being given to feelings and emotions is a dangerous snare. But we all are humans (true emotions are only the positive ones- I might wanna study the teachings of self-remembering once more). There will always be a sense of injustice and the need to fight for personal preservation.. BUT, I now believe certain laws and decorum people are expected to abide by might not have humanly comprehensible rationale supporting it, because even as the universe is meant to operate in ways we can never fathom, rules and statutes are put in place whereby not all are fully backed by comfortable reasoning.

Some are because.. Some just are.

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