I squeeze smiles out of you!

Sunday, March 19, 2006
12:55 am

Caught V for Vendetta just now with a pair of smarting eyes that was the result of frequent nocturnal pleasures- my archnemesis. And oh, the aches.

My my, just look at all those candid socio-political contention; those undertones peppered all over the place in the movie. I feel the urge to just grab the original novel itself and get engrossed in it. Hey, the movie actually realistically illustrates the human retaliatory instincts upon subjection to supreme injustice.. Hmmm.

Are such 'rebels' viewed as unconventional mavericks and unscrupulous antagonists; or are they simply the trendsetting benefitors of society who have simply been cast an unfair vote, with faces turning away and hearts remaining closed? It's like every soul's out for more welfare and equity. But when no one dares voice it out to the authorities, would this amount to anything when a lowly nobody speaks up on behalf of the masses? Is he now going to be vilified for standing up boldly? Is he now the villainous V!?? The government might not always be the good guys. Now I- can identify with that.

Thus the ideal law-abiding conformist should also play his part, by not just imperturbably and undiscerningly submitting and obeying. Let him be one who is able to see beyond the schedules and deadlines, beyond the rules and laws, beyond the mundanity and thoughtlessness. It's not like we all have impaired reasoning and value systems.. THINK and consider; and FEEL and weigh first, before obliging! And a vicious act against humanity is then more a matter of perspective than morality. Nothing bad in the bad, really, if you look at it broadly. Let the joy fester and ferment before being eliminated and displaced. And success comes in Cans.

And now, a staunch decision on my part to throw all my life at this newfound Home. Not going to stay a defeatist- mindsets are going to be continually moulded. But of course, not to forget to ensure everything about me demonstrates the right pH balance, with sound values and prioritizing.

The visitation felt unnatural and routine. So was the entire sleepy daze this day. A B.S. that never sank into the recesses of my core being, followed by my well-prepared ministry duty that never happened owing to a chain reaction problem from the very start. Took fifty (conscious) winks standing up! Because the 'eyes closed, heads bowed' stance makes for great comfort- somehow.

To church, to church, to buy some fat bread.
Home again, home again, faith's far from dead!

It all still unfeelingly added up for the very good of my innermost longing, so I guess I'm not complaining. I'm just unsure whether I still can, despite it being..

Worthwhile?

Let's see how the Contacts do tomorrow.
And I.

doodled
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