I squeeze smiles out of you!

Friday, March 10, 2006
11:12 pm

People develop a certain kind of loyalty to their favourite food. But sometimes it's just out of sheer convenience that they keep ordering the same food.. It keeps their minds from actively trying anything else.

And yes, got the notion from Resonemus that externalities happen to you, which I'm somewhat agreeable with. We don't affect our surroundings nor are we actually engaged in activities, but instead are wholly subjected to being overcome and controlled by the activities and stimuli around us. Example, when you've found a lost item in actual fact it has found you. Or when you smoke a cigarette it's actually that cigarette smoking you. Sleep happens to you; you don't really sleep. This is a logic that doesn't make much or any sense at all to those who only have a superficial understanding of how extensively we all are unconscious of a pristine, unadulterated reality of living our lives. Existentialism thrills me.

An entire day off devoted to sleep. And yet the aftereffects of overstraining at the trials on Wednesday seems to be here to stay. Plus the exposure to paint fumes or whatchamacallit in camp have all combined forces and made for some heavyduty bodyache and a chronic runny nose (which has stuffed up now). Good thing the incessant sneezing has stopped today. And now it's time for some parched throat and irritable coughs (the sneezing and coughing fits further hurt the musculature as they are spasmodic in nature). The body has yet to fully recover from its overheating and ultra-exhaustion. No amount of sleep can restore my immune system to its original state. Ravaged and wasted. Sick and tired. Sian of being unhealthy. Might as well don't sleep!

Religion tonight- lifted my spirits because of that someone new around and the Possibilities that can follow! Can't try to flee from the destructive source(s) of my undoing. Gotta just will myself into submitting to sanctity.

I'm still gonna sing tomorrow!! Argh. Going to be sleeping in fear later.. I'm actually scared of seeing betterment in my life. But I can't always trouble and disappoint someone. Someone.

Idolfever is keeping me alive!! Ace gave me some pleasantly surprising shivers with his falsetto and Elliott is my fave male vocals! Taylor knows how to bank on his signature crazy spasms. Bucky should be gone next (he looks so dead) and Chris made me appreciate rock music all over again. He can win. Kevin is good too but is too stiffened up!

Kellie is my fave- sooooo adorable, and Katharine is secondbest in looks with my fave vocals. Melissa or Lisa should be gone next, nothing spectacularly outstanding from the Mel C and Alicia Keys wannabes. And the untapped and underused vocal prowess Paris has under her sleeve might just give the excessively impressive Mandisa a run for her money.

Gedeon and Ayla shouldn't have got kicked out. Will had an atrociously conceited look about him and Kinnik went offkey so no qualms about that.

And so, this sums up my Chalet Week. "Wah, chalet week for you ah, John.."

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