I squeeze smiles out of you!

Wednesday, March 08, 2006
1:52 am

Veet. Its potency (or lack of it) is to be shared and analyzed further. And I'm continually thrown off my feet at how songs speak my mind for me..like Darren Hayes' music- just a notion that scuttles through from time to time.. Anyway Huo Yuan Jia's making its way through my memory and lips now.. AND I had no sense whatsoever of what I was actually trying to get at in my previous post. It seemed like I was going on and on about some foreign sounding material that I somehow felt was necessary yet also knew I'd still do just fine had it gone unnoticed. It was masqueraded from me. Or me veiled from it. Whatever.

Am I just plain bored and overflowing with an uncontrollable need to aimlessly kill time (when I should be tucked away in bed), or are there really some authentic, burning issues to be addressed and chronicled here?? I'm troubled once more by my inept people management skills..a steep deteriorating trend here..sigh. I'm seriously deficient in empathy and emotional respect. I'm so weak at this, and it's high time I cease to glorify Objectivity. This stark detachment from my heart's promptings...must stop.

I keep being at home and notice how blog entries keep popping up unknowingly. "Maybe you should consider being an editor in future," Oh well. Another item flung into the trolley of all that is quintessential of ideal career successes yet personally, vaguely attainable.

I'm ORD-ing soon!! A stone's throw away to Liberation, and that gleeful anticipation's steaming up.. YET the reluctance to budge from this comfort in stagnation toward all those thronging uncertainties is just so disquieting.. Post-ORD plans are still taking shape. You see, most people dare to say they do dream big and powerful dreams, but eventually still live lives trapped in their self-set confines that stifle and enslave. Making your mark lies in the act!

So is this fulfillment? Haphazardly blogging everything on the inside of me that clamours for release and that's it? Why don't I remember and internalize everything I blog here? Then at least there's some value-addedness in my life.. Sometimes my heart must be followed. Clarity!!! Wherefore art Thou?

People's comments do not matter as much as God's. And so, a negativity-abstinence!

(Resigned to being nocturnal- be healthy about it at least!...choice-floating thoughts. Soccer match now; running trials later. But Sticky and Prickly!)

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