I squeeze smiles out of you!

Saturday, February 25, 2006
2:26 am

Two days left of a rather enjoyable week (I thought it'd be hell). A true eye-opener- I'm starting to adore planes now!! Great food, nil work, power naps and really, it's virtually a holiday camp. PortaPumper! Pumpin' experience. Also marks the start of the planned early-ORD stunts. "No wonder your countenance's beaming these past few weeks.."

Stunning news, around Singapore and at home. In camp and for myself.

Our ex-DPM dies but the consequential last minute ops in my unit leaves me unaffected as I continue watching planes..OOPS. Yeah, well. He was a great man, I think.

The poor NYP girl..(and guy?) And forums are slamming her, blaming her carelessness and shamelessness? Outrageous, I say!! The audacity of it all. She was just UNLUCKY alright.. In the wrong place at the wrong time doing the wrong thing with the wrong person. Anyone watched Matchpoint? Brain-churning concept there- LUCK.. A matter of heng-suay.
Lol no la at the end of the day no matter what the cause was or what the motivations behind it were, she's still the victimized! BUT I wanna see how she turns this around to her advantage.. I'm rooting for her man. Serious. You go girl! But of course not stepping atop the bad publicity garnered from the fiasco la.

Can't wait for the moolah to come in! Long-awaited, much-needed salary from my part-timing. And the government's shares for all NSFs.. Godspeed you, Money! Cos February was a killer birthday month man.
And my unit's ain't slow in responding! There's just alot of bureaucratic hindrances that one big myopic loudhailer didn't care about.. The bomb threat was deemed safe enough for a prompt but not urgent response.. I hope the rebuttal statement appears soon in the Forum section.

Insatiable saw its fruition. A new member.. Plus a resultant union! When the news broke, I was at a loss. At first, acceptance rushed in quickly with smile and support. But a rationalization on all grounds of morality has yet to kick in.. I need a session with myself soon. And with the involved.

My body is kinda struck with ailments/injuries of all sorts. As of late. Is this a cautionary hint to me about anything in particular!?! Huh?
I guess it's just me paying the consequences of carelessness and negligence.. I need to WILL myself into instilling discipline in areas of accepting the blame for myself; being faithful in the small things; and attempting new standards of sacrifice. A challenge on my own Will..power.

Being pulled in all directions also entails attempting uncharted terrain. I'm slowly taking charge of decisions pertaining to my academic future now. No one else commands my life. I feel it's like a light at the end of the tunnel..smuacca!

Effeminate friends add spice to my day. They brighten up conversations.

And.. Because inspirational hype never lasts, I've got to rely on The Truth about me that stands forever. This happened on Friday night.. An awakening (time and time again..) A remembrance is all I need. A consistent effort.

What now. You're gone. My fault. I'm sorry.

(Not a mere haven for finding meaning and purpose in life; but a realization of my identity and power from eternity. It was always there. The TRUTH. Our mechanical lives of unconsciousness..sigh. Wake up!!)

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