Sunday, January 01, 2006
3:00 am
Hello, six. Goodbye, five. Just years. Nothing much to them.
The threshold has been breached. A slurred nothing-spectacular-to-it.
Where're the obscure and the profound when you need them? Will everything stay superficial forever?
A grand display of fireworks that warms and fuzzes up the tingles. Craning their necks to admire a cliched style of celebration, the ardent crowd craved for more razzles and dazzles. A missing of the point. A misguided ecstasy. In the broad daylight of a night sky. How flawless.
Yet it was ethereal - colours have never been as richly and vehemently strewn about as just now. The symbolic ushering in of 2006 with sights and sounds and high spirits..somehow never found the hook-up for me. Personally, it was just a nominal experience that was otherwise largely different for the rest of them: just listen to the laughs and the screams. Spontaneity and enthusiasm can be synthesized! The Shapes were awesome though. Beauty. Sheer beauty. Breathtaking and blissful. The critical decisions made for a sense of it being worth the while. Everyone loved it. Climactic blasts of emotions. What a bountiful reward. Ended early.. AND somehow, something was missing. An unfulfilling transaction.
How welcoming when no one hears what you need to scream. No, I'm not going to spiral downwards.
The facade of beauty was epitomized tonight in our last-standing activity. And it leaks throughout humanity like an epidemic.
Ambidexterity points not to talent, but to confusion. A stronger front only protects weaker innards. Responsibility and patience have been withstanding the tests. Self-doubt and that selfish sense of fairness are thickening though. Love and honesty can be synonymous if there're no tinges of phobia and intoxication. Thrown an entirety of a life toward inconsistencies and uncertainties. A subdued intensity. No one senses anything amiss? Authenticity cannot be substituted for genuineness. That's a candid actuality. It's real. No one can know it except.. Yes, THAT HIGH AND RELIABLE a standard. Why can't the world just be deeper and more sincere?
So who's going to be penetratingly true this coming year? Maybe I'm just ill in the mind?
"Honesty, is such a lonely word.
Everyone is so untrue.."
-Billy Joel, Honesty
doodled
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