I squeeze smiles out of you!

Monday, January 16, 2006
9:56 pm

When you come back from a break, you get loads. It's natural here. And fatigue causes a type of immunity to the surroundings- people, words, feelings, circumstances.. Reflected sunlight allows for fluctuating mirages of bleak hope. HOT!! I like the bed now. Blitz gives me alot of... TV SHOWS!!! Lol. And I love Carl's Jr. Totally tailor-made for stomachs like mine..muahahaha.

Tired!! 3 more days of this sauna suit. Nose is still stuffy. I need another empowering book. Not a strange empowering book though, like that one. Talking God humbles me. More of these!! Teh voices are either irksome or appealing to me man. Can't wait for CNY and the food and the relatives and the moneyyy!!!!

Customizing my singing to always include melismas and a wide natural voice range. I simply adore Mariah Carey now and want to spread her music all around!! I just admire inhuman vocals. Harmonize!! I like the constipated Jackie Chan expression. It's just like the dramatically expressive, and enthusiastically busy OC I saw today. Jennifer Love Hewitt is stunninggg..where's she now?!?!

Everyone benefits from a sense of contact with divinity..even if it's only imagined (Angels And Demons). True, but sad. Missing the point! Big picture, macro-living for me. You either suppress; or express. Like now, there're major transitions in camp. Out of touch with happenings in camp cos of my hot job..but anticipating a goodbye BBQ..fun!! They flare up, I detach. Leave la, leave la. MISSED. Talking late into the night enriches; and deprives! Money is gonna be misered.

Love and attraction, it's two ends of a spectrum (The Tension And The Spark)! Ever get drawn to something or someone so much but when you start taking ownership of it/him/her, you abhor it to the marrow! Regretting what you started off thinking was definitely so SUITED for you.
1) An captivating shirt that people so scornfully bash as gaudily out of line and you soon find that its colours run;
2) after reviews and opinions, you underuse your iPod- for fear of loss or damage or quick expension of battery life;
3) an attractive partner you later realised you never truly wanted to spend your life with for sure- you two were practically messing up every time;
4) a career you always felt was the prescribed route to success which later had fatal pitfalls you never expected you signed up for;
5) an ostensibly mundane and uncomfortable Relationship you broke out of deciding the grass is greener in the ungoverned and misguided life back where you came from.

Randomness thrills me. But ponder deep and hard- are you going to rashly jump into anything on impulse the next time you are drawn to it?

doodled
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