I squeeze smiles out of you!

Wednesday, October 19, 2005
10:34 pm

It's just one of those days where i'm just feeling naughty and bad and shut out from all ethicality. Letting me hair down and defying all conventions. Good thing i've got you. Grr.. Oh i'm worth around $1.5 million plus from here. How uplifting yeah.

Someone comes by and fills your sleepy afternoon with a maximum dose of awkwardness. Whooshed you off your groggy disposition with an unfamiliar feeling overall (like abruptly and earnestly moving forward yet knowing there's a vague foreboding of a bleak and lacking end). Then cashflow headaches come invading. Then one more person wants to meet you later on but you're caught in two minds between winged notes and a nice nap back at home in a stormy, comfy climate. Then another, in the evening pours out his lanky milky goo of blabberings albeit grave problems into your cup of kindness, no slower than you can say "I'm confused too," and then you screw it all up with the finale: playing the game with Under one more time. One more breathless, guilty time.

Oh, there are some things i don't say. It's public here, by the way.

It's all in the mind and within my power to change it so it serves my purpose. But the joy of fasting for Muslims makes me feel even more enslaved. All in perfect time, it seems. Ahh. Righteouness and obligation ring together synonymously. But at my core there's always a True North: and even Jay Chou treats it as an escape for solace; but all i'm doing is just weaving through my labyrinthine circle.

Think it's the shot of blood to the head yesterday that's sculpting me up to another surreal, quickflashing phase. Multi-faceted effects. Somewhat.. wringing the vitality out of me. Again. And i'm running late for work, now.

I should see myself getting sold.

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